This past week I've had much weighing on my mind. One of those, and the biggest I would say is accepting my new job. At first I was torn with should I take it. Should I stay? How will this effect our lives. How will this effect R's school? I was so stressed and scared that I made myself sick, like doubled over sick and was completely exhausted. I've finally made a decision [of course with the help and support of R] and we're going. But I still have a nervous/sad feeling in my guts. I'm scared for many reasons. In less than a month we are going on vacation. We are looking for an apartment and moving everything we own. I will have to figure out exactly what it is I'm teaching and gather information and curriculum for who knows where so the students [who apparently look the same ago as I do as I was told by the principle who hired me] don't think I'm an idiot and not take me seriously. I have to do a whole bunch of other things to be qualified for the job and to get my teaching license. I keep telling myself every few hours to not worry. It's going to get done and it won't help to worry. But sometimes I still worry.
I have also realized how sad I am going to be to leave Rexburg. I know I can't believe I'm saying it either, but we have made some pretty amazing friends here the last while and I don't know if I'm ready to leave them. We also live close to both sides of our family whom we are really going to miss seeing all the time. When you're in college you're surrounded my young people whom you have a bunch in common with. It's a great time for friends. I'm not so sure it will be that easy in Ogden even though I am crossing my fingers.
For now I'm going to push every though of new jobs and a new home out of my mind [or at least try my very hardest] and go on a trip with my most favorite person in the world and have the best time possible. We will be gone for a week. I'm not going to bother with blogging 1 because this time is just for R and 2. we won't have internet so I couldn't if I wanted to.